Very strange day for me. Wayne's mother is winding down her walk on the path of life. This is made harder for him to accept because she has for so long not know him as her son. Now in the last moments of her exsistance she seems to be rising above the fog in her mind to become aware of those who will remain behind. It's very hard for him this leave taking of his mother...it breaks my heart to stand by and watch his heart breaking. I offer comfort knowing that there is no comfort for his pain. So we together move down our life path, knowing that we leave his mother behind.
Not having sisters I find the relationships between women of the same family interesting. This group may accept and welcome me as one women to another, but because I lack the shared experience they are not going to allow me to participate in thier pain or grief only within the limits of thier younger brothers scope. Death of a parent is not something new or unexperienced in my life, my mother three years ago (from dementia) and my father last year, I want to offer comfort, calm and strenght while they wish to circle the wagons against the world. It's unsettling to not be within the circled wagons. I want to participate in the journey, I guess I just haven't paid my dues.
So the day was lost at work, and not being able to just do nothing, I worked on getting a kennel for Trouble. What did I discover..that the cat has to apply in order to be boarded. Do you know that these kennels actually have applications? One of the questions on the application was please explain the mental outlook of your cat. My response, Trouble is young male adolescent cat who beleives that he runs the universe. It will be interesting to see if the Kennel accepts Trouble. Like I said a very twisted day.
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